I got a little lost

So this is the first time I've posted in three years. Now I started blogging because I needed an outlet for some things in my life that were to difficult to deal with on my own, but then didn't have the guts to talk about those things. I admire those who are able to say the things they want and know exactly how everything will turn out. I do not have that ability. I think and ponder and worry about what others will think. Or at least I did.

In the last three years I left my husband, two jobs and the state I had spent my whole life in. I have fallen in love with my best friend, changed my life and couldn't be happier. I believe that I have found out who I am and at almost 31 I am comfortable in the decisions I have made and the person I have become. I know there are others who have disagreed and will continue to disagree about the way I live my life and I still struggle with others opinions, but it is MY life and that is what matters.

So I guess I'm back and I'm ready to start over. From a new state, with a different outlook and some great people who I share my life with.

Addicted

Have you ever read a book that just sucks you in and won't let you out? Where you have to know what happens next and can't flip the page fast enough?

Reading is my number one joy right now. Don't get me wrong I love some good shows; biggest loser, greys anatomy, law and order, but books are different.

With a book you can get lost in the story, reality, fiction, completely unbelievable all of them are entertaining, and bonus, no commercials. My husband believes that there is a chance I may very well fill our entire house with books and my father doesn't understand the need to own them. They both believe the library is a fine place, as do I, but I'm a genuine fan of rereading.

Everyone has an author who they love, or a book that made them look at reading differently.
If you do have a favorite, do you pass it on? Do you share your love of a great book with others? What book is one you just had to have others read? Mine is Water for Elephants and I have passed it on to everyone I know. What books talk to you, or suck you in?

Veteran's Day

I have always had an unquenchable thirst for information regarding wars. I have always wanted to be part of the Armed Forces, but had limitations that didn't allow me. I have great friends and fabulous family who have and do serve our great country. More people need to realize that these people give their all for us to have ours. No matter if we are in a war or not, whether you believe in the war or not, they made a decision to protect the country and that is quite a gift. Thank you. You don't hear that enough, but it is greatly appreciated.

DNA: good or bad?

It took me a very long time to realize that the reasons my family drove me nuts, was because they were like me. I never wanted to admit that I could possibly be as mean and miserable as my mother, or as opinionated as my father, but I am. Don't get me wrong they're not the only traits I have. I inherited plenty of the good ones to, you know humor, love, all those ones. I noticed recently that as I get older, I find myself doing many of the same things I hated my parents for. I have come to the conclusion that for us not to continue the issues of those before us, we have to be steadfast in our knowledge of what the issues were. Like if both your parents are alcoholics you probably shouldn't drink. One of the other things I've noticed is that everyone elses family is just as crazy as yours. It is what gives us all common ground. So I will continue to plug along becoming myself instead of molding into my parents, thats the best any of us can do.

Hello World

Sometimes I don't understand people. There are people who are nice, not all the time, but for the majority. Then there are those who are nice when you meet them, but then become giants jerks. Here's the deal either your nice or jerk. I would really like to meet some nice people. I mean I have some close friends, but I like people.

Here's a question for you why are the people you think you actually really think are cool, the ones who just totally miss the bus. Here's the deal, I met this guy. We totally got along great and had a really good time together, have some things in common even. So I send him an email and what does he do, oh thats right he IGNORES IT! I mean come on people we're all adults, if you don't want to talk then friggin tell me. Not that hard, but whatever.

I have now determined that meeting new people is overrated. I'll stick with devil I know.

The One

I'm married, have been for over 4 years now. He is a fabulous guy, but I have a question. Have you ever met someone of the opposite sex you just clicked with. I mean you see them across the camp and are immediately physically attracted, so you spend some time talking. Not planning anything, but just to get to know them. You have fun together if only for one evening, but the entire next day you can't get them out of your mind.

What do you do when that guy is not your husband?

Lost

There are some days where things are just wrong. Some days where even getting out of bed is too much. I'm pretty sure today is that day. I don' t really want today to be that day, but its been almost three hours since I got up and its been quite crappy.

I'm not sure why once the first couple of hours of a day are bad the entire day is shot, but for some reason thats the way it is. How many days have you stated I just want to go back to bed and start over.

Wouldn't it be great if that worked?